When I first realized that my husband was a Sex Addict is when I found some pornography charged to my Cable bill. We had not been married long and I had just had our first child. My husband really wanted children and he seemed to be this great Christian guy and was very loving when we first met.
I have been dealing with this our whole marriage. I definitely have asked the question, “What is wrong with me??? If I was just a better person, If I was prettier or smarter. Although, I feel hurt and do not trust him I continue to stay in this marriage.
My husband lies about it and has even cheated on me at least twice that I know about. He was arrested once for wearing a a mask and approaching a nearby house where only women lived. He was really lucky that he was not convicted of voyeurism.
He was also accused of breaking into a neighbors house and putting out a her lingerie on her bed. He was only questioned in that incident. He has kissed one of my friends and her sister. He is a member of two sex websites where men solicit women for sex or vice-versa. He is addicted to internet pornography… I mean really the list goes on an on.
I do not have a job right now and I feel trapped in this marriage. Right now I do not have any confidence in myself and have been looking for a job since I was laid off in Dec of 2008. When I was laid off that is when I started finding more and more indiscretions. My husband definitely lives a secret life. He can be so charming to me and very loving to our 2 boys. I do feel like I am on a roller coaster all the time and do not know how to get off.
I know I need help for myself but I don’t have the $$ to get the help because my husband is always spending too much money. Is there any help for someone like me???
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